"By Your Side"

Hey all.

I should be incredibly happy that I attended my first college football game, but I feel low. We won 42-0. It was a cool game. For one our last touchdowns, one of our guys threw the ball, a different team tipped it, then one of our guys caught it in the end zone. Pretty sweet. I went to the game with a person on my floor. She is nice and Christian (we've talked a couple times), but we just didn't really enjoy each other's company (we had those awkward silences).

I am lonely. Here, it feels like all I can make are acquaintances. There's no solid group or person I hang out with. I am sad. If and when I ever talk with the loners at a meal (I've been having to eat by myself lately :( ), they seem nice, but end up a little...odd. I don't know if it's me or if it's the people. It's like I can't find the right people that I click with. I am tolerated and can score a laugh here and there, but I'm not getting that connection I'm familiar with when I make friends. I'm getting insecure. I don't know what to do other than pray...

My roommate didn't come back last night. I was a bit scared, but let it slide because I figured she might come back late because it was a Friday night. Turns out she was taking care of a drunk friend. And she had one drink. Talk about getting me worried all the time.

I've been listening to Tenth Avenue North to make me feel better.

What a bad past couple of days (minus watching Avatar).

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I signed up for English Club, Pet Awareness, Ultimate Frisbee, and Tabernacle. Most don't meet that often so I hope I'm able to juggle them all. And also find some Bible Studies to go to.

I have a crapload of homework so...(and maybe a concert to go to).

Thanks!
God Bless!
Tiff

PS: Thank you Chelsea and Suzanne for cheering me up with your texts and messages.