Lonely Doesn't Even Describe It

Hey all.

German wasn't as fun as I had hoped. There were only four of us TOTAL! And the prof wasn't who I was expecting it to be. I was hoping for Clark because that's what it said when I registered. And I got stuck with the only not really cute guy while the other two girls from my previous German class sat by each other. Yeah, shallow of me wanting reasonable looking guy friends, right? Urgh, I can't help it! And the two girls seem to be better at German than I am. I hate not being at the top of the class. I hate not knowing everything.

Then I accidently skipped lunch today. :O

Um, came back and...what did I do? Not much sadly. I went on TalkJesus and spent a good chunk of time there reading and chatting. I've read my Bible a bit. Listened to a bunch of Lecrae. Played Pirates of the Caribbean for background noise.

Now what?

The only homework I have is studying five or six words for German for Wednesday, doing an alphabet project for German, and reading a story online that is not online for Brit Lit.

And I'm still BORED! And lonely more than anything. I miss my friends at home. People here are either gone or...yeah everyone is pretty much gone... :( And I don't want to be a nuisance.

I'm still waiting for that "college experience." That best friend or group I'll have forever...who I can do stuff here with them. I'm tired of going places alone. I'm prolly going to Remedy, but that's not for another hour or so.

I'm scared.